Enhale-Exhale**

Relax... I should be. I know, a lot of blogger would read this post. Yes, this might be confidential but this  be my way to express my feelings that should get out from its shell. 

I'm having a baby with no father. But I know I can handle this, I am guided by God's grace and power and I knew it. Though it hurts so much for 1 year and 4 months of our relationship he left me hanging. He gave up on me with a baby :( So sad to think about it, I've been crying for weeks and now it went to a month. He already had another woman in his life and he choose her. I was the one who broke up with him and when we knew about this baby, i reckoned for a reconciliation of our relationship just for the baby but he declined. I begged for weeks, I cried for weeks but in the end he left me totally. It really hurts so much. Until now, I am not blaming this angel for the agony I am going through because he/she's an angel. I'll accept the fact that I am going to be a mother without a partner.

Sunday, August 14 2011. I shared my problem to his eldest sister that resides in Manila. It is good to hear that his family is on my side, they'll support me as the bearer of their niece/nephew,grandson/grand daughter. It really make my heart melt. When his brother texted me saying that I should break up with his elder brother because he's just a piece of shit, lazy man and irresponsible brother. Well, it's damn true. But when I think about him, really hurts so much that he chooses the girl that he knew for only a month while we've been through a year. And he even wanted this baby aborted, and until now he's begging for an abortion but i resisted. I don't want to be burdened for the  rest of my life for killing my first child. NO. I don't want to kill my own blood. I can live without his father. I can live without his care. I can live with my family,true friends and my baby.

Thank you for your genes, HONEY.

God bless you SINNER.