22nd of January, I decided to break up with him, eventually , I rehearsed everything that I should say and do but sad to say I'm not successful . HaHaHaHa :D

The day goes by with an inspirational thoughts and messages from him, literary coming from his mouth. I'm with him on hot saturday, nervous because I thought this is the end of my love life but it wasn't what I expected instead he spoke to me first, he said things that enlightens my mind like he was begging me to stay (OH NO ! HE CAN READ WHAT'S ON MY MIND x_o) 

He said,

1. "Wag mo masyadong sanayin ang sarili mo sa akin na feeling mo tayo na sa habang buhay" 

-Ouch. yan talaga nasa utak ko since he was my very first boyfriend that reached a year !!

2. "Be a  lady"

-Yah-uh. I am still a baby. But I'm trying to because I'm running 18 :'(

3. "There are instances na ma attract talaga ako sa ibang girl, siyempre lalake lng ako"

-I know. :'(

4. "If you trust me, stop spying my account. But you can check it if you want."

-I have freedom to check it, anyway.

5. "Don't give your 100% love sa akin para in case mag break tayu dahil ayoko na, di ka lubos na masasaktan."

-Why practice? pra ma end na talaga?

Heartaches are normal. Just jive with the flow for you to get used to it. Never get too OA for you no to be sooo annoying  !!!!

Ayst.. It's my fault anyway. I'm so SELFISH, OBSESSED and lil bit SELFISH, SELFISH,SELFISH  ends with SELF-CENTERED.. Hard looser what you call. YAH ! it's me but Im not the kind of person that is envious. :)) 

Mwah !

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Pardon me for being poignant once more this time. I know, every time I update this blog of mine, everything was all about my love life. Anyway this is my blog, considered as my diary and public confessions parting you some fraction of my life.

I was dazed that someone removed and changed our relationship status.I was in a great quandary since we never broke up that time though there are things that is on my mind about our status. Early in the morning I gave him a call and talked about it, I was able to shout on the phone while we are talking. I am so livid that time that I'm out of my pace. And he told me that he is not the one who removed it but his friend, next to him on the computer.

I loved him so much and gave everything; time,sex, trust .. what else?

This past few days, I feel strange unto his actions. He's getting colder and colder , less texting and he isn't eager to look or ask what and where I am. Unlike before he seems to act like crazy when I don't reply to his text's.I know he's not my property and I don't have the right to dictate anything that he doesn't want. All those months and days of our relationship, i was giving all the freedom I can give and all the heartaches that I have was spoiled in my heart, mind and on this blog.

Ohh my.. Im running out of words here and all I can do is crying.. Shit,

What If you found someone better, what will you do?

What if your relationship is getting colder and colder, what will you do?

I don't know if he still loves me or I am just getting too paranoid in this relationship...

Oh.Noo !!!

Sad kitty :'(

he didn't text :'(

Days...

2010 has ended and yet my parent's still haven't met my boyfriend. I was asking him to meet them last December but  still he replied "NO". And now I am asking him again on my 18th birthday on February 11th he answered the same. I don't want to stay long in this relationship without the guidance of my parents. I want them to see each other for me to feel comfortable. 

On March 23 is our anniversary and I want him to meet them. If answered the same thing I'll end this relationship and that would be my final decision. It hurts when I am thinking that his family knows me but my parents doesn't knows him he even didn't cast a shadow to my parents.

It is so unfair :'( my best friends haven't seen him yet.. And I feel so bad.

There are things to consider when you are in a relationship. Your parents should guide you always although it is irritating. Your boyfriend or your love ones should also mingle with your friends for them to feel comfortable. It is awkward when you and your friends are hanging with their boyfriends and you feel pariah. And sometimes they are asking you, "Where is your boyfriend?" Ooh-uuh.. your'e embarrassed and you are finding a fitted answer to their question for you to not to feel at ease.

To guys out there. If you really love your boyfriend/girlfriend. Be brave to face consequences and never hesitate to meet their parents. It is a good thing in a relationship that you'll meet them. Benefits are out there, parents could support you and you can save money. you don't need to spend a lot of money for dates, you can stay at your partners house. There is also no space for selfishness and self-centered, be open-minded and share things that could help in your relationship.

For you to have a good relationship, you should give and take. Till my next blog. BYE :)  

10 Ways to Love Truly

1. Listen without interrupting. (Prov 18)
2. Speak without accusing. (James 1:19)
3. Give without sparing. (Prov 1:26)
4. Pray without ceasing. (Colossians 1:9)
5. Answer without arguing. (Prov. 17:1)
6. Share without pretending. (Ephesians 4:15)
7. Enjoy without complaint. (Philippians 2:14)
8. Trust without wavering. (Corinthians 13:7)
9. Forgive without punishing. (Colossians 3:13)
10. Promise without forgetting. (Prov. 13:12)

Latest Sex Scandal

about SEX…pero what if sabihin kong hindi to tungkol sa
Sex..but this message is about God, babasahin
mo ba to?…malamang hindi…baka nga i-close mo to agad eh!…tama ba ko?…pero kapag sa ibang bagay may panahon
tayo noh?…kapag Siya na, OOOPPSSS, SORRY GOD,IM KINDA BUSY! busy with what?…Chatting, malling, texting, PC Games, beauty
rest, watching et cetera etcetera!…lagi namang ganon eh no?…minsan sasabihin pa, eh sayang ang oras,
mahal mag-internet…bakit ko pa pag-aaksayahan ng panahon to
e nagsisimba naman ako tsaka nagdadasal
naman…ako minsan e! Pwede na yon!…HINDI SAPAT YON!…nagsisimba ka nga, pero bago ka mapilit ng
parentz mo, pahirapan!…nagdadasal nga, pero halos paulit-ulit ang
sinasabi natin gabi-gabi!…laging LORD SANA ganito ganon Lord
tulungan mo ko! Lord Favor…wag na kayong tumanggi, ganyan di ako noon….LIFE IS NOT ABOUT HAVING FUN! LIFE IS
NOT ABOUT YOU OR ME!…ang buhay ay puno ng problema!…at dapat tayong magpasalamat sa mga problema na yon,kasi kapag may problema lang naman tayo nakakalapit sa Diyos eh, tama ba?…nung Sunday, tahimik ka sa church..hindi nakikipag-usap sa katabi… kumbaga well-behaved… pero itanong mo nga sa sarili mo kung naintindihan mo yung sermon
ng pari!HINDI MO ALAM NO? e syempre, tahimik ka
nga at nasa simbahan ka nga,…PERO LUMILIPAD ANG UTAK MO!…kung ano-anong iniisip mo…anong kakainin
ko mamaya, saan ako pupunta, sino na kayang tumatawag at nagtetext sa fone ko?…sagutin kaya ako ng nililigawan ko at
marami pang iba!…sayang yung chance na nakausap na sana
natin ang Diyos…simula ng ipanganak ka, nasabi mo bang
nakapaglingkod ka na sa Diyos?…naiparamdam mo na ba sa Kanya na mahal
mo Siya?…hindi pa cguro!…pero kapag sa mga GILFRIEND at
BOYFRIEND gagawin natin lahat masabi lang natin kung gano natin sila kamahal…nasa kanila lahat ng oras natin, but kapag
kay Jesus, kahit 1 minute wala…try nyo kayang bawasan miski 30 minutes
lang ang panonood ng tv and makipag-usap kay God or basahin ang
Bible…di ba kayo kapag hindi kayo pinansin ng
taong mahal nyo kahit lahat na ng bagay ginawa nyo, MASASAKTAN KAYO?…ganon din ang DIYOS….kasi binabalewala natin sya eh!…ipinanganak tayo para MAHALIN SIYA! WE
ARE BORN FOR GOD’S PLEASURE.WE ARE BORN FOR HIS PURPOSE. WE
ARE BORN NOT TO BE SERVED BUT TO
SERVE….siguro itatanong niyo: “sino ka ba para
sermonan kami at para magsalita ng
ganyan?….Kristiyano ako at ginagawa ko lang ang
purpose ko….dati, hindi ako religious,tamad magsimba at
paulit- ulit lang ang prayers ko, pero gusto kong makabawi kay God…may panahon pa para magbago…ang dami ko pa sanang gustong
sabihin,kaso kulang sa space….SALAMAT SA PAGBABASA NYO NITO.GUSTO KO LANG MAG-SHARE SA INYO!

BULLETIN SUBJECT: latest sex scandal

In times of difficulties never say

“God I have a big problem, but instead,

“HEY PROBLEM, I HAVE A BIG GOD”

and everything will be alright.

Babae Lang Ako

Sorry  kase babae lang ako emotional at madaling masaktan

Sorry kase babae lang ako na naghahanap din ng pagkalinga

Sorry kase babae lang ako na nasasaktan kapag hindi ka nagtetext

Sorry kase babae lang ako na sa bawat pagtunog ng cel ay hinihiling na sana ikaw ang nagtext o tumatawag

Sorry kase babae lang ako na madalas ay tanga na nasasaktan na ay hindi pa rin natututo.

Sorry kase babae lang ako na nangangailangan ng yakap at halik mo.

Sorry kase babae lang ako na nag aasam na sabihan mo ng I Love You

Sorry kase babae lang ako na humihiling na sana yayain mo na akong magpakasal

Sorry kase babae lang ako na minsan ang sakit ay idinadaan na lang sa tawa

Sorry kase babae lang ako na minsan may pagkataklesa

Sorry kase babae lang ako na hopelessly-romantic

Sorry kase babae lang ako na nagmamahal sayo

Sorry kase minahal kita

Sorry kase mahal kita

Sorry kase mamahalin kita

Kase babae lang ako

Pero babae man ako at hinugot lang mula sa iyo kaya kong magmahal ng higit sa makakaya mong gawin at ito ang hindi ko ihihingi ng sorry.